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Gone too soon

Nov 10th, 2009 by Angele

This morning I came across a box full of old photos in my mom’s drawer and when I recognized the photo, my heart sank. He was sitting at a table by himself, sipping a glass of beer, a cheerful gleam in his eyes as he smiled at the camera. I stared at his picture for what seemed like forever and I felt the pain in my heart that has become all too familiar to me. This moment of anguish seized me, taunted me, and then left me breathless… I broke down completely, my eyes surrendered to the tears as I did with the unbearable pain.

Daddy was gone too soon, leaving behind sorrow and remembrance. And I miss him so much it hurts… Someone please make the pain go away…

Posted in Daddy, Personal

42 Responses to “Gone too soon”

on 10 Nov 2009 at 7:19 pm1MKL

Oh.. that’s really sad Hope you get better, be strong.
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on 10 Nov 2009 at 8:10 pm2day-dreamer

*hugs Angele tight*
on 10 Nov 2009 at 8:46 pm3P T

Oh Angele! I’m so sorry to hear about your daddy. I know how painful it is losing someone so close and dear. I’m sure he must be looking down at you and smiling at how good a job he did with you!

Remember the good memories you had with him and that would surely lighten your heart eh?
*hugs*
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on 10 Nov 2009 at 9:21 pm4Angele

To MKL,

I’m doing ok now. Thanks for your concern. It’s just that at times, my heart is so heavy that I have to let the tears out. But I feel better after
on 10 Nov 2009 at 9:22 pm5Fadil

He lives on through your family. Pass on his values to your children. Although you’re sad, you must take comfort in knowing that your mom and him conceived a fantastic and amazing lady.
Be well.
on 10 Nov 2009 at 9:22 pm6Angele

To day-dreamer,

Ohh that is so sweet dd. Thank you for the hug.
on 10 Nov 2009 at 9:30 pm7Angele

To P T,

He’s been gone for a few years now but I miss him everyday. Sometimes the pain is so unbearable…
But like you said, I still have the memories and they are here to stay forever.
*hugs back*
on 10 Nov 2009 at 10:11 pm8Angele

To Fadil,

Thank you for your kind words. I’m deeply thankful for everything my father has taught me over the years. His values and teachings are very precious to me and he will live in my heart always.
on 10 Nov 2009 at 10:18 pm9Connie

A chaque fois que je lis tes post sur ton papa, j’ai le coeur gros… Je ne peux pas m’empecher d’imaginer comment je ferais moi sans mon pere et je me dis qu tu es tres courageuse. Enfin mo habitier raconte imper mo life non?ca mem nou fer ene la jounee. lol

Anyway, ki pu fer.. ainsi va la vie… il faut la prendre comme elle vient.
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on 10 Nov 2009 at 10:44 pm10Angele

To Connie,

Profite de chaque instant passé avec ton père. La vie est tellement imprévisible que ça en devient effrayant.
Si je pouvais revenir en arrière, il y a tellement de choses que j’aurai fait, tellement de choses que j’aurai dit…
on 10 Nov 2009 at 10:51 pm11Kit

Time heals and good memories are what should live on, not the pain of losing someone dear or the “what ifs”. Chin up =)

and like my popo says with the rotin-bazar mimic, he’ll probably “cham-kai toi” when you meet him again because all you held tight to over the years were the regrets.
on 11 Nov 2009 at 6:09 am12Eryn
on 11 Nov 2009 at 7:37 am13Pinknpurplelizard

I do feel that reminiscing and nostalgic feeling about my grandma as well. This was esp when I see some of her favourite foods and things that remind me of her. I gotta get on with life but still remember the loved ones who have passed on as well.
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on 11 Nov 2009 at 8:14 am14Carine

HUGS to you … It’s okay to cry and feel like this as this is something we can never forget.
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on 11 Nov 2009 at 10:16 am15La Pingouine

Courage moi j’ai perdu un ami l’année dernière et à chaque fois qu’on parle de lui, je ressens la même chose mais j’essaie de penser aux bons souvenirs et ça me redonne le sourire
on 11 Nov 2009 at 3:29 pm16Angele

To Kit,

I can’t help but smile whenever I think of the good memories. I know he wouldn’t want me to cry and live with regrets. Thanks for reminding me about that (n_n)
on 11 Nov 2009 at 3:30 pm17Angele

To Eryn,

Feels good

*big hug*
on 11 Nov 2009 at 3:33 pm18Angele

To Pinknpurplelizard,

Very true… Our loved ones would want us to go on with life. They live in our hearts no matter what…
on 11 Nov 2009 at 3:35 pm19Angele

To Carine,

We never forget and we try to live with the heartache. But if feels good knowing that we’ve been part of their life for some time and that we were loved by them till the end.
on 11 Nov 2009 at 3:40 pm20Angele

To La Pingouine,

Oh je suis terriblement désolée pour l’ami que tu as perdu. Je sais que c’est dur mais toi aussi il faut que tu sois courageuse et que tu gardes le sourire. C’est ce qu’il aurait voulu
on 11 Nov 2009 at 6:10 pm21Meli

so sorry for your loss
I’m certain he’s watching over you, and even though it hurts him as much as it hurts you to be apart, he’d want you to smile when thinking of him.. just like that,
<3
on 11 Nov 2009 at 6:11 pm22Josh

hi Angele,

I have also lost my father and you must be glad that you have at least a picture. In my case I have only his identity card which is in bad shape.

I know how it feels. Just as La Pingouine said just hold on to the good memories you have together.

Take care
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on 11 Nov 2009 at 6:47 pm23Pin

*hugssssssssssssssssssssss*
My friend just told me that one of her greataunties just passed away some time after my grandmother… and she made me laugh by saying “n mari bel fete zot p fer labas dapres lord la” hehehe
Sirement to papi aussi ensam p fer belle fete la haut labas ek bane la, without a doubt

xxx
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on 11 Nov 2009 at 6:59 pm24Gaia

thats so sad…think its only you and your heart that know the real pain…

well like Connie i dont know how I will live without my dad or mum…

a virtual hug for u TC
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on 11 Nov 2009 at 9:11 pm25waz

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ooopzzz! Angele, wake up! wake up! WAKE UP! *waz frantically and desperately shaking Angele* Oh God, i think i press a tad too tight…time for CPR!!! CPR, FTW!
on 12 Nov 2009 at 6:56 am26Pinknpurplelizard

*Dials 911 for Ambulance*
Paramedic’s diagnosis of Angele - Broken ribs, collasped lung and severe bruising due to Waz’s overzealous hugs.
lol
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on 12 Nov 2009 at 9:02 am27Patrick Ng

I hope that with time you’ll learn to “accept” the situation with less pain. I say less pain because you’ll never forget your father. Like you once told me, the bond between a father and his daughter is a very special one.
All the best.
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on 12 Nov 2009 at 11:35 am28morinn

I was talking about my grandfather to a friend yesterday and I felt a pain in my heart. I know how it feels when you come across a belonging or a picture of someone you’ve lost.

I’m sure you’re daddy is still with you, guiding you and making you become the great woman that you are now.
on 12 Nov 2009 at 12:49 pm29Angele

To Meli,

He is definitely watching over me and it might sound crazy but sometimes I can feel his presence and strength
on 12 Nov 2009 at 12:56 pm30Angele

To Josh,

I’m sorry about your father too…

An old ID card is better than nothing at all
I think what really makes me sad is that I don’t have a good photo of me and my father together. But I still have some of his personal belongings and I keep all of them preciously. Somehow keeping his stuffs makes me feel closer to him.
on 12 Nov 2009 at 12:58 pm31Angele

To Pin,

Your comment made me smile
Haha d’apres rol bane la amizer pli bien lahaut tou!
on 12 Nov 2009 at 1:02 pm32Angele

To Gaia,

Cherish your mom and dad with all your heart and let them know how much you love them. Sometimes we think we have forever but life has a funny way to remind us that we are here only for a while.
on 12 Nov 2009 at 1:03 pm33Angele

To waz,

Oh my god, so many hugs! *fainted*
on 12 Nov 2009 at 1:05 pm34Angele

To Pinknpurplelizard,

Hahahah! Lizzy you are a lifesaver
on 12 Nov 2009 at 1:08 pm35Angele

To Patrick,

Thanks

I do believe there is a bond between a father and his daughter and nothing can break us apart. Not even death.
on 12 Nov 2009 at 1:11 pm36Angele

To morinn,

Hugs to morinn. I’m sorry about your grandfather… But just like my dad is watching over me, I’m convinced your grandfather is guiding you in your daily life and making sure you’re doing alright.
on 12 Nov 2009 at 6:42 pm37waz

phew…
thanks for dialing 111 Pinknpurplelizard!
she looks stable and boring!
on 12 Nov 2009 at 7:49 pm38¥@$#

Hello,
I just read a horrible blog post somewhere else pointing to here.

I’m really sorry you had to endure all that shit talking over there… It felt painful while reading it from a neutral point of view….
I can’t imagine how hard it must have been for you

Take care,
Yash.
on 12 Nov 2009 at 9:37 pm39Angele

To waz,

If I’m still boring, it means I’m back to my normal self again! That’s what you were trying to say?
on 13 Nov 2009 at 1:54 am40Manju

Oh Angele, i felt so sad reading this D:
think of the happy memories and be strong sweetie
come here, *hugssssssss*
on 13 Nov 2009 at 12:18 pm41Angele

To Manju,

*hug hug*
Thanks. I have many happy memories and that’s what makes me go on.
on 13 Nov 2009 at 6:35 pm42waz

yeah, boring Angele is back!