~*Lady ÅnGe|e*~

When the going gets tough

Aug 2nd, 2008 by Angele

The other day while chatting with a blogger friend, she told me I wasn’t blogging much these ~~days~~ weeks. And she was right. I have been quite silent and discrete in the blogging world lately. I don’t know whether I’m just going through some phases but I feel disconnected to the world around me and this feeling has been there for some time now. *heavy sigh*

It seems like I fell in some kind of routine and I hate that sensation. Is it just me? Is it only in my head or something is really happening and I’m just not seeing anything? I thought maybe this week-end would have been fun and cheered me up but I guess I was wrong. It was only an unhappy and boring Saturday. Even the weather seems to agree with my mood… Dark and cold.

Sometimes I just want to leave everything behind and go far away to some places where no one actually knows me. I wish I could set my mind free, take a deep breath and escape from my own life. Just for a day or two.

Come to think about it, it’s quite easy to smile and pretend that everything is fine. It is so much more convenient than to explain the inner feelings I have deep down. Now I’ve realized that if I wear a mask, I can fool the world. But in the end, I cannot fool my heart. Looking at my reflection in the mirror, I don’t recognize myself… Who is that girl I see? She’s staring hard at me but I don’t seem to remember her.

Posted in A glimpse of me, Daily blabla, Life & Reflections

24 Responses to “When the going gets tough”

on 02 Aug 2008 at 9:54 PM1waz

[delurkin]
hello Angele,
u r not alone in feelin like that…
here it has been raining like cats n dogs for almost 2 weeks now…
i’ve been sick since last tuesday…i still feel crooked!
i’m tired…i want to come back to MU!!! ;(
[/delurkin]
on 02 Aug 2008 at 9:58 PM2day-dreamer

I think a normal person goes through that sometimes.

But I really hope you are okay. Come talk to me in MSN if you feel like it, okay? *hugs*
on 02 Aug 2008 at 11:51 PM3Angele

To Waz,

Life can be pretty tough and messy sometimes, huh? I hope you get well soon. And if you find a remedy for depressed people, do let me know.

Take care.
on 02 Aug 2008 at 11:55 PM4Angele

To day-dreamer,

Thanks for listening to me. I think I really needed to burst out my frustration and you were there at the right moment.

*hugs*
on 03 Aug 2008 at 4:04 AM5Jemima

When the going gets tough… I PRAY.

*prays for Angele to find her inner peace*

*HUGS*
on 03 Aug 2008 at 9:38 AM6Eryn

*hugs*

Cheer up gal. Look at the brighter side and live life to the fullest. I’m sure he won’t wanna see you like that.
on 03 Aug 2008 at 10:35 AM7ahlost

*hugs*
on 03 Aug 2008 at 3:39 PM8Yashvin

Thats true, u are not so active, but remember, u are always in our heart, lol, more exactly in our rss feeds
on 03 Aug 2008 at 6:34 PM9Kyels

You know you can talk to this old grandmother anytime babe!

[:

I feel the way you do sometimes; heavy heart and lethargic when it comes to doing things. Anyway, it’s just a phase and I am sure you can get over w/it soon. Just need to keep the positive thinking going!

HUGS!
on 04 Aug 2008 at 6:49 AM10_butt

hugs?
on 04 Aug 2008 at 10:44 AM11aline

It’s just temporary. You will get over it soon. Like Kyels said, just think positively.
See all these comments? You have friends who are here for you.
on 04 Aug 2008 at 9:58 PM12Angele

To Jem,

Thx for thinking of me in your prayers I really appreciate.
on 04 Aug 2008 at 10:00 PM13Angele

To Eryn,

Yeah I guess sometimes I get so depressed that I forget that life isn’t just about sad moments.
on 04 Aug 2008 at 10:01 PM14Angele

To ahlost,

*gives a huge hug to ahlost*
on 04 Aug 2008 at 10:03 PM15Angele

To Yashvin,

Yeah my blog was kinda dead lately! But I’ll try to update more often $:-\$ ”

*cough*
on 04 Aug 2008 at 10:05 PM16Angele

To Kyels,

Old grandmother? Haha babe! You made my day

I know I can always count on you to lend an ear. I’m so grateful.
on 04 Aug 2008 at 10:06 PM17Angele

To _butt

Definitely big big hugs
on 04 Aug 2008 at 10:13 PM18Angele

To Aline,

You’re right. Those moments are just temporary and definitely I shouldn’t let myself be overwhelmed by such lousy thoughts. Anyway today I’m doing much better

*hugs*
on 06 Aug 2008 at 12:54 AM19Robbie

Hope those feelings go away quickly, this is the most touching post I’ve read in months, I sincerely hope you feel better really really soon.

Hope you can recognize that girl in the mirror soon. *grouphug*
on 07 Aug 2008 at 7:45 PM20The Moody Minstrel

It seems to be a common problem, Angele. I know a number of bloggers who are going through a blogging slump recently. That includes myself.

I guess we need to find out what other things there are in our lives from time to time, right?

Best wishes always!
on 11 Aug 2008 at 2:12 PM21ahlost

Time to blog again
on 12 Aug 2008 at 8:12 PM22Angele

To Robbie,

I’m kinda feeling better yes
on 12 Aug 2008 at 8:14 PM23Angele

To The Moody Minstrel,

I’m relieved to know I’m not the only one feeling this way!
on 12 Aug 2008 at 8:25 PM24Angele

To ahlost,

*out of inspiration* $:-\$ “