~*LaDy ÅnGe|e*~

“… Fly, fly little one,
Upon the wind of heaven’s love,
Leave this lonely world of ours,
Escape the sorrow and the pain,
Fly, fly, precious one,
Your endless journey has begun,
Take your gentle happiness,
Far too beautiful for this,
Cross over to the other shore,
There’s peace forevermore,
But all this memory bitter-sweet,
Until we meet,
Fly, fly little angel,
Do not fear,
The moon will rise, the sun will set,
But I won’t forget…”

So this is the new year… And I don’t feel any different. In fact, I’ve been feeling like crap for the past week. I really didn’t want to start this year 2009 with that state of mind but circumstances made it that way… unfortunately. I have come to a point where I don’t want to smile anymore and I don’t want to fake being happy. When I look in the mirror, I stare at my own reflection but I don’t recognize myself. Why is my reflection someone I don’t know? There’s a look in those eyes that even I haven’t seen before.

Maybe it’s about time to admit it. I’ve tried, oh yea, I’ve tried so very hard but today I’m standing on the line between giving up and seeing how much more I can take. My heart is heavy with sad thoughts I keep for myself. I’ve been fighting my inner demons… I’ve stumbled and picked myself up, over and over again with no safety net.

I’m tired of feeling bad for things I don’t even understand anymore. I’d rather feel nothing. It’s better… it’s easier.

Happy new year people.

Lots of people, crowds everywhere rushing and pushing and shoving, going nowhere. It’s Christmas time again. We have to get all those things done. Hustle, bustle, quickly, we must beat the sun. Must get this and must get that. Maybe this nic, maybe that nak… But when did it happen? When did we lose track? It’s a race, yes it is. We are running, yes we are. But let’s not forget before we get too far… What is really really important, doesn’t take much to figure out… Take time to love and love from the heart.

Merry Christmas to you

It’s hot. The shopping malls are crowded. And I can be very stressed when it comes to last minute shopping.

Only 2 days left before Christmas and I’m still not done with gifts hunting! I never thought I would say this one day but I’m starting to really hate shopping!

Oh my effing god!

Anyone else addicted to games in here??

3 things that I really hate : Liars, hypocrites and close minded people.

Do you know many people with those traits? Believe me when I tell you that the world is full of them. They are everywhere… So called friends, families…

Sometimes I wonder. Can I really trust other people? Or are they going to stab me in the back someday?

*blogging from the office*

 TGIF!!!

2 hours to go and I’ll finally be going home! And I intend to make the most of my week-end. I promise not to spend my days sleeping like a pig. *cough*

My Sunday is already booked because I would be going with LaSh and his friends on a road trip to the south of the island. I like road trips No definite destination… Wandering through pittoresque places… Taking a lot of pictures… Yes!

As for Saturday, there’s no plan yet. *wondering* Maybe going out and do some shopping at this new mall in Phoenix. Well, it’s not exactly new anymore because it’s open for almost a month now! But I never had the chance to go yet, so maybe this Saturday… hopefully! I feel like treating myself to some nice summer outfits.

Anyway, I still need to get through a few more hours at work and then I’ll be done for this week!

Wishing you all a superb week-end.

Summer in Mauritius is always very very hot and most of the time, people would hear me complain about the weather and how uncomfortable I feel when it’s so hot! But then again, summer has its good sides. Sea, sun… and lychees! Hahaha. Yeah this is what I like about summer in Mauritius!

Else, like I was just saying… “Arghhh! It’s too hot! Turn on the air conditioning!”

But do enjoy the pics and forgive me for whining too much.

I have been kidnapped by aliens from Venus. Aliens from Venus are all females. At first they didn’t want to let me go. They wanted to make me queen of Venus! Me? A queen??! But then… ya know… among women, we always understand each other… We had some interesting debates about men, shopping, the latest fashion trends… Did you know that even on Venus they have those great stuff as Guess handbags, Tiffany jeweleries… etc?? Amazing! After a huge glass of iced caramel machiato and some Venusian style sandwiches, they finally decided to take me back to little planet earth.

*sigh*

It was a great experience. I’m going to miss those Venusian girls! But they said I would always be welcomed on Venus. ^^

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So… here I am back after weeks a long absence. Sorry if I didn’t post anything for quite some time. Wasn’t my fault. Blame it on my laziness! I was away on a trip to Venus.

Sometimes we think that things in this life change so fast. At other times we have the feeling that things change very slowly. On and off we wonder if they ever change at all. The scary part being that we’ve all been hit with change at some point, and it doesn’t seem to have come slowly at all.

Years back we stepped into high school… individuals seeking to do well, to find our identity, to discover our path in life. We had a new attitude, looking to fit in, wanting to achieve something. We followed our daily routines, expanded our circle of friends, and gossiped about dates and parties. We just couldn’t wait to get older.

We rebelled and we learned. We got accepted and we got rejected. We had crushes and we thought our life was over when we got heart broken. And yet, we still couldn’t wait to get older.

Somehow along the way, we finally grew up. We went our own directions. Some started to work right after school, some went to universities here or abroad. We lost sight of the people we considered to be our closest friends. Maybe for a short time or maybe forever. Another life… getting excited to start over, feeling sad about the things we leave behind, being anxious to move on. We experience real life. We happen to change and to become different people.

We sometimes remember our school years, our friends and our innocence. We look fondly at the memories. Some of us are lucky to still have that same best friend. So many years brought change. But friendship held us strong when things were shaky, in good times and bad, in laughter and tears, through boyfriends, bad grades, family problems, and love … With them, we wanted to grow up so quickly.

Life teaches us so much. It forces our real friends to come to the front, while the rest take their places in the shadows of our memories. We lose some people but through real friendship we keep the ones we will need most in our life.

Last night I “met” a school friend on facebook. We went to primary school together, ended up at the same high school but somehow we lost each other when we both went for further studies. After so many years we finally managed to get back in contact. I was happy but at the same time it felt strange. It brought me back to those school years where things were so different. And as we talked, I realized that indeed a lot has changed. We both went through terrible family issues, we got bruised but in the end, we survived.

Maybe the time has gone, but the faces and the friendships I recall.